My New Year's Resolution: I will write something every single day and post it for everyone to see.
#1: "It's not tomorrow until I close my eyes tonight"
How long have I tried to stretch the waking hours that I'm allowed? Exactly how long have I been trying to stretch those hours is the better question.
I don't like sleeping before anyone else because I'm afraid I'll miss something important. It's a silly line of thought that goes along with a few old patterns I had stuck in my brain when I was younger. These ideas were very silly and for the most part unfounded.
For example, at one point I was convinced that if I couldn't see two people right in front of me, who were not related but were of corresponding sexual orientations, they had to be "doing it." Like some sort of lovemaking metaphysics I was utterly convinced this was true from the moment I hit puberty. It may not really be true, but it's definitely one of those things that is not entirely untrue.
Newer lines of thought that persist these days I can't really encapsulate in quite the same way as that previous wackiness. Give me 10 years and I'll tell you what a fool I was now.
Back to the matter at hand, that is the one involving me staying up late and trying my damndest to wake up early. There is so much that I want to do, so much I need to do, and other things that flit from need to want as often as an eyelash bats. As for now, I'll steal the time where I can and use it just as wastefully as a newborn baby.
I'll learn my lesson soon I hope, whatever it is.
Chad Fujihara is the Editor in Chief of Ka Lamakua. How he managed to convince anyone to let him run an online arts and culture magazine is a question, if answered, will surely result in either a headache or a visit to a practicing demonologist and as such best left unasked. Any other questions or comments, please send to chadf@hawaii.edu
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